Friday, June 24, 2005

I Just Don't Love It Enough

So I've been trying to finish my historical with little success. My friend read it and said she wanted to smack the heroine. After getting more of her opinion, I had to agree. I chatted with Melissa about it and we came up with a good ending to make my heroine pay for her stupidity. It got real complicated. Then I realized I just didn't care. I don't "love" it enough (anyone receive that wording a rejection letter?). Of course I have to come to this conclusion on page 362.

It isn't a bad book. I think it is well-written but the characters mean nothing to me. I really don't care what they do. I don't care how they feel. It's my own fault for not catching this earlier. I have spent many, many months on this book with little progress. I could never envision this book on a bookshelf. When the little voice tries to get my attention, I should probably listen. So it will be filed away on the old hard drive until I get an urge to use it for something. But I have no inclination to keep working on it. I have a couple of other ideas ready to burst out, one I already have the query letter written in my head.

I worked so hard on the mechanics and the research, I forgot to put in my passion.

10 comments:

Kelly Parra said...

That's tough, Rene. But at least you're comfortable with putting it aside. I believe it's true if you're not passionate about the book it will show in the long run. I wish you luck with your next project! =)

PS - Yep, heard that not loving enough rejection before.

Steph T. said...

*waving* I've heard that rejection too.

And I've been there with the 'forgot the passion' thing too. Except I wrote the whole book. I guess it was a learning experience - nothing is ever wasted. At least we knew when to fold em.

Gena Showalter said...

Totally agree with the learning thing. I've got a few books that will never see the light of day. They, too, lacked passion. I just hadn't found my voice yet. Keep at it!!!

Tori said...

{{{hugs}}} Rene. That's definitely a hard decision to make. But one I totally understand.

Suzanne said...

Aw, hugs, Rene. That's a really hard decision to come to on your own. Usually, we need an editor to tell us that, LOL. But you're right--you need the passion!!! Go forth and find something you feel passion for.

chryscat said...

I agree with these wise women. You've made a good decision for your writing right now. Invest that passion in your next project. The work will shine.
Grins*

kacey said...

362 pages huh? Well, I wish you could have figured it out earlier, but it's good that you're okay with putting it aside and moving on. Sometimes a story just isn't right, no matter what we do to it.

Michelle said...

Rene--hugs. It's tough when you run into that. But put it aside for a bit. Go back to it a few months later and see what you think. You might see something then that you can't see now. Good luck, either way!

Olga said...

Huge hugs! To put your book away is a hard decision to take. Best wishes for your next WIP!

Tess said...

That's rough, Rene. You may find that once you've set it aside for a while the characters start whispering to you, making suggestions and helping bring back your passion for the story.

I've had this problem, which is why I now make myself write the story FIRST, then do a lot of the research, tweaking once the ms is done.

Will be interesting to see how I mesh this with FDin30D.

I don't think any story is ever lost to us for good. Sometimes we just need a break from it!